bad habits

Its been a while. Many things have happened in my life and I have done much growing up since my last post in 2016. It feels like ages ago and I look at my work and think. I wrote that garbage?  There is much there that is genuinely good but the grammar and the random impulses of thought seem so disorganized and I'm not sure why anyone read any of my posts. 

Today I'm noticing how many little bad habits I have on a daily basis effect me. I went to Chick-Fila on campus to get a meal that I didn't need. I wasn't even hungry and I had absolutely no valid reason to spend any money. I drank my warm flat coke and finished my food and felt uncomfortably full. I ask myself why?  My behavior didn't lead to any kind of real payoff. I felt much worse after eating but I still couldn't stop myself from doing it.

This one of many habits I have picked up over the years and very few of them benefit me. Most of the time we move along completely unaware that we do things that we don't even want to be doing. My parents discovered years ago that going out to eat was a complete waste. For a family of four, it became very expensive and at the end of the day, the food was consistently lower quality than what we could make at home. Not to mention that we got sick far more often than after we quit eating out. The worse part about it is that we went out to eat because that's just what we're supposed to do. We got conned into a destructive habit simply because of

social norms! I can't even begin to explain how frustratingthis makes me. 

We all think we know what we want, but clearly, we don't have a clue because we constantly make choices that make us miserable. If we all start looking closely at our daily decisions, you'll find you probably do a lot of very pointless things because everyone else does it, or maybe you've always done it and can't even remember why. Whatever the case may be, when I begin to realize these habits they begin to lose their hold on me. Getting rid of these strongly reinforced behaviors is easier said than done but starting to analyze your world could greatly improve your life.

I'm sure everyone can empathize with this and I hope my thoughts can in some way help you.
I hope to be forming a good habit of making a blog post on a regular basis. 

Hope yall have a great day!